Sunday, January 27, 2013

Into the Light My Friend

Cody Hansen April 26, 2001 - January 22, 2013

My last day with my beloved Cody was as perfect as it could have been. The night before he had been in so much pain that he need an injection of morphine to go to sleep. We had slept soundly, together curled up on a mattress I placed on the floor. I woke up early with a sense of dread mixed with nervous anticipation; was it really going to be the day that I said good bye to him? When owners ask me how will they know when it is time, it always sounds a little trite to respond with "you will know," but most of the time if you allow yourself the opportunity to listen to your heart and read your pet's body language you do know when it is time. I knew I wanted to give him the gift of happiness and peace and a pain-free, anxiety-free passing. I knew I didn't want to end up at the emergency hospital in the middle of the night with him in a panic and me in tears with someone I didn't know. I had the opportunity to guide the situation. I reached out to people I felt might be able to help and was so grateful for the response. By noon I had a plan that I was comfortable and at ease with. That morning we took a walk in the open space by my house and Cody played fetch in his wheel chair. What a gift that wheel chair was because it allowed him to do the thing he loved best - chase the ball!
The cat gets in on the action
The other necessary thing do to that morning was pass a urinary catheter to empty his bladder. The night before I had pulled the urinary catheter that had been placed at the hospital because it might have been part of his discomfort. Passing a urinary catheter is a relatively easy thing to do, but does require sterile technique and expertise. Most owners with paralyzed dogs learn how to express their pet's bladder with external pressure and they get quite good at it. Repeated catheterizations are not ideal because the likelihood of a urinary tract infection is quite high. Basically there's no great solution for a dog that cannot urinate. There are surgical ports that can be placed that may or may not be appropriate considering the patient, owner, and circumstances. The reason the dogs cannot urinate is because the nerve that controls the relaxation of the bladder sphincters is damaged. Cody's was definitely not working properly.
We spent the morning playing fetch in the sun. My cat was happy to join us outside, and although did not appear interested in the ball, had a good time frolicking in the sun with Cody and me.
Playing ball in his wheel chair
Cody had an appointment to swim that afternoon, but before we went swimming I took him to the emergency and specialty hospital to get his bladder emptied again and say good-bye to his oncologist. Empty bladder, big hugs, tearful sighs and we were on our way.
Cody got to swim for an hour and a half. We played classical music and took pictures. My big beautiful pup was at ease in the water. He was suited up in a float coat and float rings around is neck and pelvis, so all he had to do was dog paddle, letting his back legs just hang. His concentration on the ball was so focused, so intense that not even a squirrel running through the room would have broken his stare. It was a delight to watch him in his element. I recall his very first swimming lesson when he was just a puppy. There was about 5 minutes of panic and adjustment, then we couldn't drag him out of the pool! Get near water and Cody would be diving in.
Then it was time to leave the pool. Again with the big hugs and tearful good-byes we made our way home.
Cody was put to sleep on the lawn that he had played ball on so many times. He was surrounded by loving family members. I held his head in my arms while he held onto his ball. I buried my face in his soft fur and whispered to him how much I loved him and that he was a good boy.
My grief will ease with time I know, but there are many things that trigger the memories. It is important to allow yourself to grieve for as long as it takes. My family and friends have been a wonderful support during this difficult time. His ashes and mementos are on a shelf with my other pets that have passed away. I hope that they are all playing together in that place where pet's souls go. I look forward to playing with them again.

This is the thank you card that I made to send to all the wonderful people who helped me and Cody.


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Monday, January 21, 2013

A Turn for the Worse

Cody's wheel chair was a godsend, but he was having trouble urinating in the cart. I would put him in it and he would posture to pee, but only little squirts of urine would come out. I figured that the pressure from the leg harness was occluding his urethra because when I took him out of the cart he urinated fairly well. So I set to work adjusting the cart; up, down, legs bigger, legs smaller... you name it that darn cart got taken apart and put back together multiple times per walk. No amount of trouble shooting seemed to make a difference. And, an email to the wheel chair company about the problem was, well...rather disappointing to say the least. "I'm sorry to hear that the dog is having a trouble using the bathroom." Gee thanks. Needless to say, I'm not impressed with the customer service at Walkin' Wheels.

He got his cart on Friday and could mostly walk on his own, he was just unable to get up by himself. By Sunday he was unable to walk; his back legs seemed to be totally paralyzed, and by Sunday night he was in a panic - dragging himself around the house, panting and very agitated. The trouble shooting began with taking him outside to pee - no luck, nothing, not a drop. Oh geesh. This meant I would have to pass a urinary catheter and empty his bladder that way. Sometimes you can manually express your pet's bladder with gentle pressure on the abdomen, but that wasn't gonna happen with my 80 lb dog with a super tense belly. No way. So it was off to the emergency room for a urinary catheterization. Yep, the bladder was huge when we looked at it with the ultrasound. My poor pup had probably not been fully emptying his bladder for about 2-3 days.

Now that Cody was definitely neurologic it was time to see the neurologist. I had set up an appointment for Tuesday, but because he couldn't urinate it was now an emergency. In this situation, if he didn't have cancer I would have assumed that he had herniated a disc. The symptoms and progression of symptoms were pretty classic for a herniated disc - progressive weakness progressing to paralysis. If this ever happens to your dog, get them to the emergency ASAP. The reason not to wait is that performing surgery in a timely manner can mean the difference between your dog walking again or being paralyzed for life.

Since my dog had cancer there was some question as to whether the problem was a herniated disc or perhaps spread of his osteosarcoma into his spine or spinal cord. The neurologist confirmed my suspicions. My options at this point were to consider some more imaging to see if we could find out exactly what was causing the spinal cord damage. We took radiographs, but they did not confirm anything. At least if there had been a bone tumor in the spine we might have seen it. Or if a disc had ruptured, the space between the vertebra where the disc is suppose to be might have been smaller (you can't see the disc itself on x-rays, because it is not dense enough). No answers yet. An MRI would have been the next step. I opted not to do an MRI. The reason was that it wasn't going to change the treatment plan. At this point with a herniated disc a pet owner needs to decide if they will proceed with an MRI with the plan being to go to surgery immediately after the MRI. Even if it wasn't the osteosarcoma effecting his spinal cord and is was just a herniated disc, the likelihood that Cody would walk again was dubious considering his concurrent cancer. He just didn't have that much time left. We went home. He with an indwelling urinary catheter, me with a heavy heart.

That night my poor dog suddenly became very painful after eating his dinner. Again, trouble shooting the situation, I figured his pain medications had worn off. He ate dinner, then refused his pill pockets (that's what I hide his pills in, and he loves them!). Situation critical! Finally I got all his medications into him with cheese! Just a quick comment here about owners and their quirks.... they love to tell vets the nitty-gritty details of what type of food they use to get medications into their dogs. We just smile and nod... So you can just smile and nod here...

It was a very traumatic night for both of us. My normally zen happy dog was suddenly sitting up with his front legs stiff, eyes wide, ears back and shaking. It just ripped my heart open to watch. After the medications started to kick in and after I did an acupuncture treatment he was able to calm down and sleep a little, but he still wasn't comfortable. A call to the ER yielded a recommendation to pull the urinary catheter in case it was making him uncomfortable. That didn't really help much. It took a trip to the ER, more medications and a shot of oxymorphone (a type of morphine) to get both of us to sleep (he got the shot, I was just emotionally and physically exhausted).

Seeing my dog in such pain made me realize that it was time to give up the battle. I did not want him to suffer in that kind of pain for a moment longer. I also did not want to wait for another crisis situation, where he would be in a panic and I would be distraught, to euthanize him. I decided that we would have a great last day doing all the things he loved doing and that he would go out as happy as possible.


Friday, January 18, 2013

Cody Gets a Sweet Ride

Cody in his new Walkin' Wheels

Yes they make wheel chairs for dogs! Because I'm in the business I forget that this fact is surprising to some people. A few days ago Cody started getting weaker in the back legs. I decided it would be a good idea to look into getting him a wheel chair. He was no longer able to get up by himself. I was having to lift up his hind end for him. Once he was up he was able to take a few steps, but then he was just falling down. I figured I would need something to save my back and Cody needed something so he could be mobile.
I should mention that I have been using a harness called the Help 'Em Up harness. This harness is really great for hoisting the rear end of your dog.
Cody in his Help 'Em Up harness
I really wanted to get the wheel chair quickly, so I asked my veterinary community for advice and was directed to Walkin' Wheels. Their web site is very easy to navigate and understand. They have created a good product that can be ordered on-line and delivered by next day air if necessary. It took one measurement and a breed description and viola I had a doggy cart on the way!
The cart is a beautiful thing! It has given Cody some freedom and the ability to chase his ball again!

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

The Fun Stuff!

It's all about quality of life, not quantity of life when it comes to pets. I'm trying to take Cody swimming as much as possible because it is something he really loves.
Cody with his swim coach
We are also spending lots of time just hanging out in the open space behind my house. My cat has taken to coming with us on walks also, so the three of us are just hanging out a lot these days.



Taking a walk with the cat








Emotional Rollercoaster

After our consultation with the oncologist, where I left with my head swimming with information about the various cancer treatments for osteosarcoma, I settled in to just trying to enjoy Christmas and time with my dog. Not a day went by though that I wasn't considering the options.

The decision making process went something like this:

I should take the most aggressive approach and help Cody beat this! We can deal with an amputation! We'll get a harness and even a doggy cart if we have to. I know good rehabilitation centers where we can get physical therapy. Cody won't miss his leg! I checked out Tripawds.com, a great web site and blog site for canine amputees. We can do this! The chemotherapy will stop the cancer in it's tracks! I gathered surgical estimates and thought about scheduling surgery for early January. His surgeon was going to be on vacation, so we would have to wait; bummer because the sooner the better. Oh wait... he has chest mets, and he is orthopedically challenged in the other 3 legs... maybe an amputation isn't a good idea.

This might be a good place to show some pictures of the hardware my dear pup is carrying around. Ya see Cody drew the short straw, so to speak. He got cancer in his "good" back leg (the left). He has no hip joint on the right because of a failed total hip replacement when he was a young dog. Since that time he has never really used his right hind leg much except to help with balance. Now with the left leg being bad, he has been forced to use the right leg, but it's not very functional

Ok, so amputation is out. That means palliative radiation and injectable chemotherapy. There! A decision. A plan. We can move forward. I scheduled appointments for chemotherapy and radiation for early January.

Throughout this process I had been talking to every veterinarian that I know about the options. Just to not leave any stones unturned I reached out to another expert. This veterinarian used to work at University of Florida doing stereotactic radiosurgery (SRS). He is now in my neighborhood and I have a good fortune of being able to refer cases to him. We discussed Cody's case and he felt that Cody might be a candidate for SRS. He would contact the head radiation oncologist at Colorado State and have her call me. Wow! I was thrilled. This procedure is as good as amputation, but it's radiation so Cody would get to keep his leg and we would kill the tumor!

At this point things got really complicated. I contacted Colorado State about a consultation. I probably used all available technologies that weekend to try to get Cody's records and radiographs to the proper people.  Fax, e-mail, text messages and phone calls! Saturday and Sunday went by.... 2 days are agonizing when you're trying to plan something like this. Monday morning (Jan. 7th) I spoke to the chief radiation oncologist. She hadn't seen Cody's radiographs yet.  She thought that SRS might give Cody about 6 months. Unfortunately they were overbooked and didn't have an opening until the 16th. Of course that is a really bad week for me to leave California because I have a work commitment that I cannot cancel. We discussed the option of driving him out and leaving him for treatment, then coming back to pick him up. Ok, I figured I could do that if this was really going to be the right thing for Cody. The price tag for SRS is approximately $5500. With that and the logistics I wanted to be super sure that this was a good treatment plan. The chief radiation oncologist called me back that evening with some bad news... she had the opportunity to look at Cody's radiographs and felt that with the metastases in the chest, Cody probably has about 2 months, and therefore didn't recommend I make the trip for SRS.

I was devastated. This meant returning to the palliative radiation + chemo plan. It felt like I was giving up. I cried for 3 days. It didn't help that Cody was sick from his first dose of chemotherapy. He stopped eating and started vomiting about 2-3 days after chemo. He bounced back and seemed really good after radiation. I decided not to continue with the injectable chemotherapy and try oral Palladia (an oral chemotherapy). However, now his neutrophil count is low, so we cannot start Palladia. When an animal is getting chemotherapy, the bone marrow is suppressed and doesn't make as many white blood cells as it normally would. The neutrophil is one of the several different types of white blood cells that fights infection. When the neutrophil count is low the animal is at risk for developing infections that can be life threatening. We have to wait until his neutrophil count comes back up before we can start Palladia.

Cody had more chest radiographs taken on Jan. 9th when he went for his first radiation treatment. Since we had been making big decisions based on his chest x-rays (not going to Colorado) we thought it might be worth checking to see what things looked like now since his last x-ray was early December. It had been a month and I again got my hopes up that if things didn't look worse that I might still consider going to Colorado. Well, unfortunately things looked worse. The nodules are bigger and easier to see and now Cody has some fluid accumulation around his lungs (pleural effusion).

Sometimes the decisions just get made for you in a sense. I'm resigned to the fact that my dog has osteosarcoma and it is a bad cancer and as far as I know there is nothing I can do at this point to cure my dog. Now I need to take some attitude lessons from my beloved dog. Live in the present and enjoy the little things! We are doing what we can to make Cody as pain-free as possible and doing all the fun things he loves to do!







Saturday, December 22, 2012

Oncology Consultation

My happy Christmas Dog!
What's the next step after receiving the bad news that your best friend has cancer? Well after crying your eyes out, you gather your wits and schedule an appointment with an oncologist. I recommend this even if you don't think you will pursue any further treatment. Even if your general practitioner is the greatest on the planet I still think the additional information you will gain from a visit to the oncologist is invaluable. They went through 4 more years of special training to become experts in this field and are the most up to date on the latest treatments. They may also know of a study going on that your pet may be eligible for. They will also give you a prognosis in months. Which you may want to hear and it may help guide your decision making process. Personally I am not a huge fan of the "months to live" statement because all dogs are different and that can give one a false sense of hope or despair. But it does give one an idea of the effectiveness of the various treatments.
In the case of osteosarcoma the most aggressive approach to treatment is amputation of the effected limb and injectable chemotherapy. This will buy your dog 10-12 months.
If your dog is not a good candidate for amputation, you can consider a limb spare procedure depending on where the tumor is. There is a surgical procedure where they remove the tumor and replace it with a plate and/or bone graft. There is also a special type of radiation called stereotactic radiosurgery that will kill the tumor. This type of radiation is only done in a few places. Colorado State and University of Florida are two, there may be more in the USA that I am not aware of. A limb spare procedure plus injectable chemotherapy will buy your dog 10-12 months.
Just amputation without chemotherapy gains an average of 3 months.
Palliative radiation is a type of radiation that just relieves the pain, but doesn't kill the tumor. Palliative radiation plus injectable chemotherapy plus a bisphosphonate (a drug that helps build bone strength) may give your dog about 9 months.
All these projections are based on a dog WITHOUT evidence of metastases in the lungs. Unfortunately when there is gross evidence on x-rays that there are nodules in the lungs you can subtract about 3-4 months from all these estimates.
So what to do? With Christmas coming there is going to be a delay no matter what procedure we choose.  I need some time to digest the information and make a decision. Until we decide on the next step I am controlling Cody's pain with the following drugs: Tramadol (a pain killer related to morphine), Previcox (a non-steroidal anti-inflammatory), and Gabapentin (a seizure medication that is thought to help with neurologic pain). Cody has also been wearing a pain patch of Fentanyl since his biopsy procedure. Fentanyl is 100 times stronger than morphine. He seems pretty comfortable with the patch on, but I hope I can do something more to treat the pain.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Cancer Returns

It has been a while since I updated Cody's blog because, well... you know the saying "no news is good news!" He had been cruising along without problems until September, 2012. In September he started having intermittent non-weight bearing lameness of his left hind leg. It would get better with chiropractic adjustments and laser therapy and then he would stop using the leg again. I took radiographs (x-rays) of his left stifle (knee) and chest in September and didn't see anything of note on the x-rays. I even had the chest films looked at by a radiologist. I did not have the stifle film looked at, which I regret now because it turns out there was a suspicious area present, even in September. Note - if your veterinarian recommends having the radiographs reviewed by a radiologist say yes! They might catch something your general practitioner missed.
In early December I took more x-rays because the problem was becoming more frequent and not resolving with any treatment or after adding on more pain medications.
Well, bummer of all bummers, this set of radiographs showed a suspicious area on his femur AND if that weren't bad enough, his chest x-rays showed nodules that were not there in September. Knowing that those sort of patterns on radiographs usually mean osteosarcoma I dissolved into a sobbing puddle of mush and just hugged my dog like the world was ending. Of course I held out some hope that the problem would be a lesser evil like a fungal infection or less aggressive cancer.


The tumor is the area that looks "moth-eaten" at his distal femur.
Cody had a bone biopsy done on December 11, 2012. The results were chondroblastic osteosarcoma, low grade. It isn't much reassurance that the tumor is "low grade." An osteosarcoma is an aggressive bone cancer and usually by the time we (veterinarians) identify it on radiographs there already is microscopic spread to the lungs. Cody is already showing nodules (small masses) in his lungs. The thing is, in his case, we can't be sure just by the radiographs that the nodules are metastases from his osteosarcoma. They could be recurrence of his previous lung cancer or they could be metastases from his osteosarcoma. Could we biopsy them? Well, it would be difficult and require a CT scan and probably wouldn't really change anything we do at this point.
You can make out small round densities (lighter areas) that are the nodules.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

One Year Post-Op

I have really good news to share. Cody is more than 1 year out from his diagnosis of lung cancer. Yay!

We have done radiographs and blood work at 4-6 months intervals and so far everything appears to be clear and cancer free. He still has trouble with his arthritis, but you wouldn't know it when you pull out the ball! He still chases it with gusto! The dog door gives him a little trouble these days too.



Diet and supplement update:
I started him on a commercial frozen raw diet mixed with a high quality dry food. The raw diet I am using is either Nature's Variety Instinct or Stella and Chewy's. I mix in just a bit of Wellness Core, Reduced Fat. I also steam veggies and add them when I have time. I found this diet to be easy for me to fit into our busy lifestyle and he seems to be thriving on it. His poops are very small - I'm taking that as a good sign that most of what is going in is being digested and utilized.


Current supplements & medications: Adequan injections, Royal Coat (fish oil & borage oil, by Ark Naturals), Lubrisyn (hyaluronic acid), Veterinary Immune Tabs (Ramaekers Nutrition), Vitalzym (enzymes), probiotics, Apocaps, Pain Plus (Resources), Dasuquin, Previcox, Heartgard Plus and Comfortis. Oh and occasionally Gas X!

Sunday, March 4, 2012

6 Month Check Up

Wahoo! Last month we took chest x-rays and did blood work to see how Cody is doing. No obvious evidence of any cancer. Yay!
The anti-cancer regimen has morphed and changed over time. I am now cooking for Cody sporadically as time allows and I tend to keep it really simple. I'll boil chicken and steam veggies. Now and then I will throw a bunch of green stuff (parsley, kale, brussels sprouts, etc.) into the food processor and sprinkle it on the food. The consistent base of his diet is Wellness 95% canned meat, and Wellness Core, Reduced Fat kibble. I usually will mix some kibble in with the homemade diet, just to keep his tummy from getting upset. Because I travel a lot and sometimes he comes with me or sometimes I have someone else taking care of him I've opted to keep an easy feeding option like kibble and canned food on hand.
I've also recently changed his supplements. I've gone back to giving him the Veterinary Immune Tabs from Ramaekers Nutrition. In a previous post I mentioned that there was some concern over the anti-oxidant super oxide dismutase. I think that the amount is not very much, so I'm not going to worry about it. For the last few months I've been buying Transfer Factor and K9 Immunity separately. The Veterinary Immune Tabs contain both of these plus vitamins, minerals, amino acids, probiotics, some essential fatty acids, joint supplements, and tumeric. This supplement is costing me about $174 a bottle and it lasts Cody about 1 month (the recommended dose is 1 tablet per 20 lbs). That is my cost plus shipping. If you purchase this product through a veterinarian it will probably be about $200+ a bottle. You can also contact Ramaekers directly and order it directly from them which may save you a little money.
I am still adding in the Apocaps - Dr. Dressler's product. I've weaned Cody off of some of the other pain and joint supplements to see how he does. I've stopped the Dasuquin and Pain Plus, but have continued to give him Lubrisyn (an oral high molecular weight hyaluronic acid). He still gets Previcox, a NSAID, every other day. I make sure he is getting digestive enzymes and probiotics to help with digestion and keep his gut healthy. So far we haven't had any bad bouts of diarrhea in a while (probably because I haven't gone crazy with home cooking!).
Tonight he got a treat. I decided that buying a whole Rocky organic chicken would be the least expensive option for chicken. I roasted the chicken with broccoli and zucchini. The easy part is cooking it, now the fun will be deboning it all!!
Instructions: Pre-heat over to 400 degrees. Wash the chicken, pat dry. Put chicken in roasting pan, spread veggies (in this case broccoli and zucchini) around the edges and stuffed inside. I also kept the livers and neck and placed them in the roasting pan along with the vegetables. Add approximately 1/2 cup water. Cover and roast for approximately 1 & 1/2 hours or until the internal temperature of the chicken is 170 degrees. Remove skin and debone. Serve! Cody says thanks! Yummy!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Home Cooking - You Can Do It!

Oh good grief... the home cooked diet is the best option I know, I know...but honestly folks getting it down to a routine takes time. If you are struggling, don't worry I sympathize. I think there needs to be a support group for owners who make home cooked dog food (there probably is I just haven't done the internet search yet!).

I was at the store today asking the butcher about the meats they carry. Well you should have seen the look on his face when I told him the organic/natural, antibiotic free, chemical free, etc. etc. meat I wanted wasn't for me. For my dog please....and can you order some chicken necks too please? After I explained that my dog has cancer he stopped looking at me like I was totally crazy.  Turns out he had a Boxer a while back.



Today's batch was a master piece if I must say-so myself.  I did buy some shiitake mushrooms to add, but after Cody spit out the uncooked sample I gave him, I decided that at $12.99 a pound the shiitake mushrooms will be eaten by me, thank you very much.